Just something to put down

Christal did this little questionnare and I thought it was sort of fun so since I have been trying to figure out things to write on here so why not do this one. :) If you want to do this one too all you have to do is answer the question only using one word answers.

1. Where is your cell phone? upstairs
2. Your significant other? fencing
3.Your hair? messy
4. Your mother? PERFECT
5. Your father? Hardworker
6. Your favorite thing? Family
7. Your dream last night? weird
8. Your favorite drink? Virgin strawberry daiquiri (sp?) Sorry that's 3 words ;)
9. Your dream/goal? Happiness
10. The room you're in? boring
11. Your children?WONDERFUL
12. Your fear? Failure
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Secure
14. Where were you last night? Supper
15. What you're not? Finished
16. Muffins? Pumpkin Spice (sorry that was 2 words)
17. One of your wish list items? Baby
18. Where you grew up?Alberta
19. What you read last? Blogs
20. What are you wearing? PJ's
21. Your TV? boring
22. Your pets? dreams
23. Your computer? Useful
24. Your life? Busy
25. Your mood? emotional
26. Missing someone? Hubby
27. Your car? LOVE
28. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
29. Favorite Store? Pottery Barn
30. Your summer?.Busy
31. Like someone? Hubby
32. Your favorite color?Blue/Pink
33. Last time you laughed? Tonight
34. Last time you cried? Today

98%

That's right.....



98%


That's what I just got on my exam from Monday!!! Let me just say it again 98%!!!! Plus, this was the hardest test for the class so I am BEYOND excited!!!!! That gives me a 91% average so far in this class.... ohhh if only I had a 91% average in highschool...oh well....

Did I mention I got 98%!!!!!

Half way done!!

Well I am officially half way done my night course and let me tell you, I think that I am going to actually miss going to class.

For anyone that doesn't know (because I don't know who reads my blog so I don't know if you know what happens in our everyday lives) I have been upgrading my Biology 30 class. Unfortunately, in Highschool I had a lot of fun, especially my last semester, and well fun didn't include schoolwork, or going to class for that matter. Do I regret not trying harder in school?!? Absolutely!!!! But you can't live in the past....and it was time to get things moving along. So for the last 5 weeks I have been going to school every Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday nights from 6:45-9:45.

I really have enjoyed my class. My professor is FABULOUS!!! She is funny, but so smart and you can tell that she REALLY enjoys being a teacher. I am also so happy I took this class when I did because my teacher has been teaching nightcourses for 9 years and so this is her last night class she'll be teaching. The other students in the class are great as well, and there are actually 2 other people from my church that are taking the class as well, so that's fun to get to know them better.

The best part of this class is that I feel like I am taking control of my life and accomplishing some of the goals that I have for myself. I REALLY want to be a nurse and this was the first step that I needed to take and it feels GREAT to finally be taking that step. Plus, my Mommy mush brain is finally being able to think again. I can actually remember things for more than a few moments, in fact I have gotten in the high 80's for my last 2 tests which is awesome when the class average for these tests were 57% and 67%.

I have A LOT of work to do in the next few weeks, 4 big assignments that are due and 3 more exams, but I can't wait. It will definately be nice to have a break from class, and to actually spend some time in the evenings with my hubby and son, but I really am going to miss going to school......oh well, I am sure I will get over it soon enough when I get into nursing and really have to go to school..hehe..

Oh he tears my heart out sometimes.

This little boy sure knows how to pull at my heartstrings. Today Nathan had been sent to his room for a time out and when he came back into the kitchen he had some pretty good crocodile tears on his face. He then turned to me and said, while wiping away his tears

"Mommy, my sad is leaking out."

HAHAHA!!! Are you kidding me?!? It was sooo sweet and of course made me feel like a horrible mother making my poor boys sad leak out...hehe... so funny.

Thankful Thursday!!!

It feels like I haven't had a whole lot of time to write on here lately, but today all I'm doing during the day is cleaning house, and well.... I am trying to come up with any excuse to not wash floors so I figured I should write on my blog!!!!

So since it's Thursday I would love to slow down and think about the things that I am thankful for.

1. I am SOOOO thankful for a body that I am able to do things with, did that make sense. Last night Wayne, Nate and I met up with our rec league baseball team to practice ( I didn't have school last night which was SOOO nice). I was playing shortstop and waiting for things to happen when I started thinking about how grateful I am that I can play ball, that I can move my legs, that I can move my arms, that I can run, skip, hop, twirl, anything I want because I have a body that works. When I broke my ankle over a year ago, it was amazing how hard it is to do ANYTHING. I had to crawl everywhere, or use crutches which suck. I could only do dishes or anything for a short while because my "good" leg would get so sore. It really made me grateful for 2 good legs.

2. I am thankful for having monetary means which enable us to do the things we want to do. Yes, we have to budget and we do have to give up some things that we would like, but we are able to have fun, do things we want, and know that we will have 3 healthy meals a day. I hate Saturday morning tv because the shows on 3rd world countries are always on, and I always get sucked into watching them, and then I end up sobbing because I truly feel for those people. I can't imagine not knowing how I was going to feed my child day by day, and then just having to sit there while my child cried because they were so hungry... ahhhh... it's making me sad. So yes, I am grateful that we can put Nathan in Preschool, in soccer, swimming, anything we want but I am even WAY more grateful that we can feed and cloth our child.

3. I am thankful for good friends, I might have talked about one in particular before but I would love to tell you a little about my best friend Jennifer P. When Nathan was a tiny baby I went to a thing called Parent Talk group. There were a bunch of woman and babies and I remember noticing Jen because she was VERY much like me. She was very outspoken, funny, loving, caring, blunt, a little crazy ;), and just a wonderful person. I was instantly attracted to her personality. We over the last 3 years have become WONDERFUL friends, but I feel (and I know she feels this way too) that it's more than that, we are sisters. I KNOW that Jen and I must have been incredibly close in Heaven before we came here because we have just clicked from the VERY beginning, it's like I already knew EVERYTHING about her but had just forgotten and now I remember it again and again and again. She is a wonderful mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend. I have been MORE than blessed to have found her. She is always there for me when I need to cry, complain, laugh, freak out, scream (okay I haven't done that but I have been close...hehe..), disagree with, agree with, did I mention laugh. I am soooo thankful for Jen and all that she has done for me and all that she has helped me to become. I love you Jen. <3

4. I am thankful for a mom who taught me how to do things for myself. I am thankful that when I complained that I never had clothes at the fabulous young age of 11 that she taught me how to wash my own clothes...hehe... ohhh I didn't like her very much right then, but I appreciate it now. I am thankful that she taught me how to cook and allowed me to experiment with food (even though some dishes were nasty) because now I LOVE to cook and share my experiments with friends and family. I am thankful that my mom didn't do everything for us, she allowed us to learn how to do things by ourselves but helped us along the way. Now that I am married I appreciate my mom making us do things around the house and teaching us how to do it properly regardless of whether we were boys or girls, and I now enjoy teaching Nathan the same way.

5. I am thankful for warm weather, and I can't wait to have grass again so Nate and I can play outside more often.

Well, I really should go wash floors...blah....toodaloo!!!

Okay, sexy hot running ladies I need some advice!!!

So Wayne and I have decided to start running and I'm SUPER excited, however, I am SOOOOO out of shape. I use to love running, haha, that was 10 years ago though...hehe....

Anyways, I am really wanting to do this but I need TONS of advice, and since I know that there are tons of you out there that are runners, could you please give me advice?

I am wanting to know how to start, what clothes should I wear, what shoes are good, how many days can/should I run a week, links to good websites, links to half marathons or marathons dates or ANY other advice you may have.

Thanks a lot!!!!

I make mistakes too!!!

All I have to say is if I have ever hurt or offended you, I am sorry.


I wish we could get past that moment that I regret, and I'm ready too but I'll wait until you are ready.


I hope it's sooner than later.

Call me, let's talk about it.

YAY Nathan!!!

This is TOTALLY a Mommy brag post but I don't care.

So Nathan has been potty trained for a few months now and we have only had a few accidents, which happened because he was too busy playing. It's been fabulous!!! I hardly ever even mention potty time anymore, I'll be busy doing something and I'll hear Nathan flush and then he'll yell for me to help him wash his hands, lately he's been trying to convince us he doesn't need to though.

Anyways, as any parents know pull-ups are expensive and I hate throwing them away unless they have been wet in, because I HATE adding needlessly to the landfill problem. Nathan has only been wearing pull-ups to bed and he hasn't been wet for I don't even remember how long. So we have been reusing the pull-ups, is that gross, I don't know, he only wears them at night and he's usually had a bath just before he puts them on so really he's clean right?!? Well, I'll keep telling myself that. :)

For the last couple of weeks I have been debating whether to try not wearing pullups or not and last night we took the plunge. You should have seen W's face when Nathan told him that he didn't have on a pullup...hehe...it was a TOTAL look of dread. :)

Nathan slept last night for the first time without a pull-up and he did AWESOME, he was dry this morning!!! YAY!!!! We have a plastic sheet on his bed, but Nathan ended up on our floor at 6 this morning and yes the thought crossed my mind to get a garbage bag and put it under him. Then I figured we would just have to rip out this stupid carpet if he peed on it, so then I smiled, handed Nathan a big drink(just kidding), and fell back asleep.

Thanks for making it this far, this is one of those moments that only mean the world to Mommy and Daddy but it's worth remembering.

Good try buddy!!!

Nathan has been fighting the beloved nap time lately, which is a TOTAL no go for me!!! I NEED nap time!! Plus, Nathan is not really ready to give it up yet, he just doesn't want to stop playing for 5 mins to lay down.

Anyways, today I convinced him to lay down and have a rest, if he wanted to just lay there and read books that was fine too. Anyways, not even 5 minutes later I hear his door open. I went to check and see what he was doing. He was standing in the doorway, ball in one hand, book in the other and said, "Good morning Mommy, I am SOOOOO rested, now it's time to play."

Good try little guy, I don't think so.

Not so sure.

I wasn't too sure if I wanted to document this phase that Nathan is going through, but this blog is to help me remember all the stages, and moments, good and bad that our family is going through. Plus, someday I will totally use this against the little man... :)

This morning Nathan and I were cuddling, watching cartoons in my bed and he looked up at me and said "Mommy, I want you to leave, I don't love you."


{Insert tears here}


Oh my freakin' goodness, are you kidding me?!? I knew when we hit the hormonal teenager phase that I would probably hear those words, but not out of my sweet, innocent, 3 year olds mouth.

My heart seriously broke.

Should I send him for a time out? Should I get up and leave? Should I cry, get mad, laugh? Ohhhh... I think I am going to cry....don't cry....teach....

I told Nathan that saying he doesn't love me and wants me to leave really hurts my heart and makes me sad and he shouldn't say that anymore. Of course, he said "Why?" So again, I explained how it hurts Mommy's heart and he doesn't want to make Mommy sad does he? I then was practically suffocated from his big hug and kisses.

I know that he doesn't really know what he was saying, and I know that he wasn't trying to hurt me. I know that he was just expressing something that he was feeling, maybe he really did want me to leave so Daddy would be here and they could spend some alone time together.

I don't know.

What I do know though is that no matter if Nathan "loves" me or not, I will ALWAYS love him, I will ALWAYS be here for him no matter what....that I know....so sorry little guy, your stuck with me forever whether you like it or not.....

Thankful Thursday.

I have seen a lot of people doing Thankful Thursdays and I think it's a GREAT idea!!! So I am going to try to remember to do it each week.

1. I am sooooo thankful for spring.....finally!!! I (and I'm sure almost everyone else too) am SOOOOO tired of snow, cold weather, gloomy days, sloppy roads, yucky weather. I am so glad that it's +5 outside right now, yes Alberta readers, I know that it's probably +40 there right now you don't have to rub it in ;).

2. I am thankful for a wonderful mom that isn't afraid to be blunt with me. If it came from anyone else I would not be very impressed but mom's know best right?!?

3. I am thankful for wonderful friends, but especially my best friend Jen. I really believe that Jen and I were best friends in Heaven because from the first day I met her (at our parent talk group) I've always felt like I've known her Forever. She's like the big sister(but better) I always wanted and I'm soooo glad that she's in my life. You sexy lady you!!!

4. I am thankful for having a healthy child. There are so many kids out there that have troubles with physical and mental health, and I am sooo grateful that I have a son that so far/hopefully never has to go through these trials.

5. I am thankful for my bed. Even though it was SUCH a pain in the butt to get it here finally, I LOVE IT!!! I am glad that Wayne and I spent the money and got a bed that really truly feels like heaven.

MMMMMMMM...wipes up drool....MMMMMMM

Okay, so the other day I was going through my cookbooks and found a BBQ sauce recipe from a lady I use to nanny for. I made them in the oven and they were okay, and then yesterday morning I threw everything in the slow cooker and ohhhhh mmmmyyyyy...... let me tell you.....


These are SOOOOOOO GOOD!!!!! Plus, they are super easy. This isn't a "healthy" meal but it's sooo worth it, plus I am a person that needs variety or I go CRAZY, and you don't want to see CRAZY ;)




Caroline's BBQ ribs!!!
1 cup ketchup
1-1.5 tbsp worcestershire sauce (I used less than 1 tbsp of this cause I don't love worchisiodiaosidoji sauce)
1 cup brown or white sugar
3/4 cup vinegar (again I used a little less than this amount)
1 tsp. (heaping) dry mustard
1 small onion cut into large chunks
salt & pepper to taste
(I also added about 2 tbsp low sodium soya sauce)

Mix together, pour over ribs and cook in slow cooker for anywhere from 6 plus hours on low..... and then sit back, put on one of your kids bibs, and act like a caveman because these are that good.

I served them with yummy roasted garlic mashed potatoes , and corn (I wanted to do a different veggie but I didn't have any, that reminds me I need to go grocery shopping)

You can also cook them in the oven if you don't have a slowcooker, but I would try to cook them as slow as possible for as long as you possibly can. The recipe says 325 degrees for 1.5-2 hours but the ribs weren't fall off the bone yummy.

I hope you enjoy them.

My first picture!!!

This is the first picture that I am posting from my new camera!!! I am soooo excited!! We went for a walk tonight and I couldn't wait to get home so I could play with the pics in PS. The first one is SOOC (Straight Out Of Camera) and the second pic is the same picture as the first one it's just after I edited it!!!

Wanna see my new toy!!!???!!!

So Wayne and I had decided that we were going to save money until June and then buy the camera that I wanted. I was fine with that, wanted it sooner but was okay with it because there was an end in sight. However, Wayne decided to be a big stud again and went ahead and bought the camera early. So today, after having Nathan help hide a bunch of fake gifts and then hiding the real ones downstairs I was able to start my hunt. It was fun and let me tell you when I found the final prize I screamed, jumped up and down, and ripped apart the wrapping paper so quickly it looked like magic...hehe. So I would like to introduce you to my new baby:



Okay so this isn't MY baby, but it's a picture that looks EXACTLY like it!!! I can't wait till we get home from church tomorrow so I can play with it again. :)

Have I Ever Told You?!?!?

Spending alone time with Wayne is soooo wonderful, and we need to do it more often, maybe not sleepovers but definately date nights. So last night while we were playing Rummikub I was thinking about some of the fun dates Wayne and I have done. Wayne is VERY romantic and is very creative and comes up with fun things to do all the time. Then I started to think about how much my life changed over 5 years ago when I met him. And then..... I finally thought about how we met, and I am sure that I haven't told many people how Wayne and I "Actually" met.

A little background info.

After highschool I decided that I wasn't ready to go to school yet, so I lived in a few different places including Seattle, SanFranscisco, Lethbridge (woohoo), Saskatoon, and then NY. I moved to NY because I was tired of living the life that I was, and I didn't want to keep going down the path that I was headed. So in NY I made some life altering changes, I found out who I REALLY was and I started living how deep in my heart I always wanted to. After almost a year of NY, my girlfriends and I decided that we were going to move back to Utah (probably because we were getting old, 22-25, and we wanted to get married, hehehe) . I moved back to Canada to get "permission" to move back to the US for work/school. When I was getting ready to leave NY my girlfriends said that I wouldn't be moving to Utah, they just had the feeling that we wouldn't be together anymore. I of course, told them they were crazy but little did I know that they really did have the right feeling.

So after a few months of being back in Saskatoon with my family I started getting bored with some of the friends I had. Lot's of my friends were living a different lifestyle than what I wanted to live, they wanted to go to the bar every night on the weekend, they were big into drinking, partying, sleeping around, and kept trying to set me up with guys that were living this lifestyle. I also hung out with a lot of YSA friends and they were fun but noone interested me in a relationship kind of way. So I decided to do something.........

Here it goes.......


I went onto Yahoo dating site, and posted a little something about myself. I NEVER thought that I would meet anyone. Well, I got a lot of responses and met a few guys but was NOT interested in any of them AT ALL!!! Then low and behold this one guy responded and he seemed really interesting.....okay...... I know, I know.....it's SOOOOO LOSERISH!!!! I can't believe that I did it, but I did and I guess Heavenly Father led me that way because I wouldn't have met Wayne any other way.

Now for the neat part. Wayne had also made an account, he was a loser back then though....just kidding!!! His account trial was up the next day and he wasn't going to renew it. He decided to check the ads one last time before the trial was over and he saw an ad about an interesting girl. So he emailed me and told me his account was closing but if I wanted I could email him at his normal email address. So I did. We emailed back and forth for a week, then we talked on the phone for a week and then decided to meet.

On the day of our meeting I went to get my nails done like I always did. However, on that day I was running late (typical me) and I didn't have time to go home and really do my hair and makeup. So I quickly drove to Joe Bean's (that's where we were meeting). I was just about to do a U-turn when I saw this hot yellow mustang(Wayne had told me he drove a yellow car) drive by with a hot guy driving it. I thought "oh I hope that's the guy" and then of course I got freaked out. I parked, got out of the car, walked over to the yellow car knocked on the window, and the hot guy looked up at me.........OHHHH my heart skipped a beat, he was SOOOO cute, and his smile....
YUMMY!!!!!

We went inside, got a hot chocolate and hot apple cider, and sat and talked. The waitress kept coming up to us and asking if we needed anything, I started to get annoyed because she wouldn't leave us alone and would come up every "5-10 minutes". Well she wasn't coming up every 5-10 minutes but more like 45-60 minutes. We were soooo engrossed with eachother that we didn't realize time was flying by. Wayne asked if I was hungry and if I wanted to go for supper. The practical side of me screamed "NO, it's time to end the date and keep him wanting more." but the emotional side of me screamed louder " Yes, he's hot, he wants to continue the date, GO WITH HIM!!!!"

We went to Boston Pizza, ordered and again talked like we had known eachother for years. In fact, Wayne was SOOOO good.... when I was talking he would put his knife and fork down and listen to every word I said. WOW!!! I remember being soooo impressed. Now I'm happy if he talks to me at dinner without food in his mouth... ;). Anyways, again people seemed to be moving in fast forward, but really we were just not paying attention. We closed down Boston Pizza, Wayne then drove me back to my car, he started my car and then we sat and talked longer in his car.

I went home totally in a daze..... could he really be THE ONE???? Why are you feeling like this, you've dated lot's of guys before, but this is different!! Wow, he's hot, I could totally make out with him.... :)

I called my girlfriends the next day, and they said, "We told you so!!!!" I wanted to see Wayne again right away. I knew "they" say not to seem desperate you should give it a week, but I couldn't wait a week. That night when he called me I asked him if he would like to get together again, he said "What about tomorrow night?" I told him that the next night my family always had the missionary's over for dinner but he was more than welcome to come over. He said"Sure".

So the next night Wayne ( the poor guy) not only had to meet my family for the first time, but also 6 missionary's. HEHE!!! Oh and remember, Wayne was not a member of the church yet, we hadn't really talked anything about it, so it was I am sure an overwhelming night. My mom asked him at some point in the evening "So, Wayne, what are your intentions with my daughter?" And he said " I'm going to marry her!!!" Looking back that was kind of creepy...heheh.... but he was totally joking and I was totally loopy so it was sweet.

We dated for 3 months, got engaged and were married 6 months later. It was fast, intense, sureal, but incredible, right, and what was suppose to happen. So even though we were big losers and met from the internet, we found eachother and I know that we were meant to, so it is all worth it.

I love you Wayne, my "geeky" internet lover!!! :)

I miss my boy!!!

Well, we sent Nathan off to Grandma and Grandpa Shutra's house for a little visit for a few days and a break for Mommy and Daddy too. Even though I LOVE having the freedom and break, I MISS him SOOOO much!!! It was so weird last night coming home from watching Wayne curl and just being able to hang out together, not once did we have to stop our game of Rummikub to get a drink for Nate or give Nate a cuddle. When he's here those small things can become annoying but when he's gone I miss them. Only 2 more sleeps and then I get to see the little man, and even though I have enjoyed sleeping in and just being lazy ;) I can't wait to see him.

:) :(

Well, because I had a lot of "fun" in grade 12 and I skipped a lot of school (which is THE only thing that I regret doing in my life) I don't have a high enough average to get into the nursing program. So after a lot of procrastination I finally started calling people and I got into the Biology 30 upgrade class offered at Siast!!! YAY!!! I am very excited!! It runs from the end of April tothe end of June, but....................

it's Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday nights from 6:45-9:45. :( :(


:( :( :(

I am soooo sad (in fact, I am crying right now) because I will not be able to see ANY of Nathan's soccer games, and this is his first year playing. I know that it's something SOOOO petty but it's times like this that making these decisions totally SUCKS!!! AHHHHH, why couldn't it be Tuesday night instead of Monday night. I know Nathan will have so much fun playing soccer and he probably won't even notice that I'm not there, but I'll know. They only have their firsts once and I have done everything in my power to always be there for those firsts.

I am probably just a hormonal, crazy woman right now, but this really does make me feel like I am not being the "best" mom I can be.

And then I stop and think about it and I KNOW that going to school and getting a better education, learning, growing, getting stability and a backup plan for our family, doing something to better me....... well, I know that this will all help me to be the best mom , woman, wife, Jackie that I can be.

Someday, I am sure I will look back at this post and laugh at myself.......it's just soccer........ and I know that I'll have SOOOO many more chances to be at his games in the future. But still....this is another bitter/sweet moments in life, right?!?

Nathan's birthday cake!!!

So when we asked Nathan what he wanted to have for a birthday cake this year he said "Dinosaurs playing hockey", hehehe!!!! What an imagination!! So that's what Nathan got. I was in charge of baking and icing the cake and Wayne was in charge of decorating it. Wayne made the nets, the hockey sticks, the boards and put the pompoms/helmets on the dinos. I think that this was the cutest cake that we have ever made... I LOVE how it turned out.

Before & During

So we thankfully have a mold free bathroom now, and things are sort of ripped down and now we are on our way to a nice new bathroom, YAY!!! Last night Wayne and Russell worked their booties off and tore out all of the yucky moldy drywall. Wayne then hooked up an air purifier which pumps ozone into the room and kills all the rest of the mold, but stinks like crazy. I have been really stressed about this whole thing because that momma bear has come out again and I will do anything to protect my child from anything, including getting sick. But thankfully everything went well and so far noone is sick so I am super happy. Now for the rest of the tear downs and then we can start building again, and then I get to go SHOPPING!!!! I can't wait to pick out flooring, a toilet, sink, faucets, etc. I know it's not the funnest thing to shop for but I am super excited!!!

Anyways, here's a few before and after pics.

Before:


After:


Before:


After:

My dreams for you!!!

This little man just turned 3 yesterday!!! Can you believe it, because I can't!! I still remember trying for almost a week every possible way to make myself go into labor. I remember walking for hours the night before we had him because I was sure that would do it. (It didn't) I remember my water breaking in the elevator on the way up to the doctor's office, that was fun :p I remember being soooo nervous but yet strangely excited as I waited to dilate fully. I vividly remember the doctor laying him on my tummy and feeling like I was dreaming. I remember looking at him, wondering who he is, who he is to become.

The last 3 years have more than flown by, I feel like I've blinked and here we are, and now I am afraid to blink again. Everyday I worry that I haven't been "good enough" for him, but yet, Heavenly Father allowed me the wonderful opportunity to help him become who he is suppose to be. Over the last couple of days, when I look at Nathan I keep thinking of things I want for him, so I've decided to document it and then hopefully someday we can look back and see where he "really" is.

So some things that I want for Nathan:

I want him to grow into a strong individual, not physically but mentally and emotionally. I want him to really know who he is and will live who he is.

I want him to have some hard times, even though it will kill me as he has to stumble and climb through the struggles, I know that it will help him to grow.

I want him to really know that he is a son of God and that he is SOOOO important. I want him to know that he is not only important to Heavenly Father but to his Mom, Dad, grandparents, cousins, aunties, uncles, and friends.

I want Nathan to someday find the wonderful woman that is out there for him, and that she will love and appreciate him for who he is. I want Nathan to be a wonderful husband, and father.

I want Nathan to be kind, gentle, caring, but fun, crazy, and just a great person to be around.

I want Nathan to be whoever he really wants to be, and not what others think he should be.

But mostly, I want Nathan to be truly happy. I want him to have everything that Heavenly Father has in store for him and more.

I love this little boy and even though I don't want him to age one more day, I can't wait to see who he is going to become.

These are my dreams for you Nate, I love you!!!!