Memory Tag!!!

MEMORY TAG!!!1. Add a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments. I can't wait to see what people remember.

***If you haven't ever met me, I would love to know what your favorite post has been*** :)

I have been SUCH a slacker!!!

After some people thought I fell off the earth I realized that I haven't posted here for over a month!! So much has been happening this last month: we spent a week on a houseboat with my whole family, that's right 10 adults & 5 kids... it was SOOO much fun!!!, I spent an additional week at my parent's house which is ALWAYS nice, Nathan got to go fishing all by himself with Grandpa Butler and Grandpa Great Butler and caught 3 FISH!!!, we came home and have now started taking care of one of my friend's 2 kids Decie & Dayton.

We have been SOOO busy trying to get house projects done that we've been putting off....hint hint Wayne... I would really like my 2nd bathroom back!! ;)

I have TONS of pictures I want to post about all our little adventures, but I haven't even put them on my computer yet...I'm so bad. So stay tuned!!!

Thankyou!!!

Well I had my surgery yesterday and it actually went pretty well. I was extremely nervous to go in but they put the IV line in quickly and next thing I knew I could taste garlic (that's what I always taste when the anesthetic starts kicking in). I said to the dr. "Are you putting me to sleep already?" They said yes, and all I had time to say was "See ya later" and I was asleep.

I woke up a few hours later and actually felt really good. So here's where the thankyou comes in. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers, I have been under anesthetic 3 times previous to this time and everytime I have been EXTREMELY sick afterwards. But this time everything was different. I wasn't nauseous at all, I was tired but after resting for awhile felt pretty great. I am pretty sore so they must have done quite a bit of work on me, but hopefully it means that things will start working like they are suppose to.

So again, thankyou so much, I am feeling pretty great and I really am glad this happened when it did and we didn't have to wait 6 months for it.

Would ya, Could ya??!??

As you know on Tuesday I am going in for surgery, and I'm wondering if you could all could pray that everything will go well, I'll heal quickly (I want to go tubing/waterskiing/wakeboarding in 2 weeks), and that it will work and we will be able to have another baby!!!!

I would REALLY appreciate it!!!

I'm DONE!!!!

That's right, I am finally done my Biology class!!! It is soooo weird to not have to go to school tonight... I don't know what I am going to do with myself.

I really don't care if I am bragging or not, but I finished with a 94% average!!!! I am soooo excited. I brought my highschool average up 7%.

This class has meant SOOO much to me... as I have said before I skipped a lot my last year of highschool, and my average was VERY low. For years I have known that I am smart, but having those low marks hang over me has made me feel like I wasn't and that I couldn't ever get into anything that I really wanted to. I needed this class to prove to myself that I am smart and that I can do WHATEVER I want in life. My mommy brain is gone and now I have a functioning, able to remember things longer than 20 minutes brain.

Our class was fabulous...there were a ton of really fun girls and 2 guys in our class that made for such an enjoyable time... I actually am going to miss seeing everyone. Last night we went out for "drinks" to celebrate being done, it was a lot of fun and our teacher even came and joined in the festivities!!!! Speaking of my teacher, she was AWESOME!!! She really cared about how we did and made it so I enjoyed learning about Photosynthesis, and Cell Structure...hehe...

Anywho...I'm done, and now to apply for NURSING!!!! YAY!!!!!

Well this is it!!!

I just got a call from my specialists office and they told me that there was a cancellation on the 24th and they can move my surgery into that spot, I was suppose to be waiting for 6 months.....AGGHHHH!!!! I am freaking out...there is sooo much to do in the next 1.5 weeks.

The surgery I am having is an exploratory surgery, it's going to be laproscopic and they are going to be looking in the uterus as well as at my ovaries to see if they can see why I haven't been able to get pregnant. If they find problems they will also be fixing them at this point, for instance, if I have quite a few cysts(sp?) they will remove them.

I HATE having surgery....I get REALLY sick from the anethesia and this last time I went under (when I got my gallbladder removed) they had a hard time waking me up, I remember the worry sound of the nurse as she firmly and quite loudly was telling me I needed to wake up and shaking me....now that I am a mom the thought of going to sleep and not waking up again is EXTREMELY worrying to me. I know that I am probably just freaking out but it's just an intense worry I have.

I am nervous too because this is THE NEXT STEP!!! This is the step that we have been waiting for for over a year and now it's here. I was hoping/praying that we would get pregnant in these next 6 months so that I wouldn't have to go through this, but now there's no time. I am hoping more than anything that it's going to work and we'll get pregnant, but I am SOOOO nervous that it won't!!! I know it's worth every moment of pain and worry that I might have however the thought is always in the back of my mind that I shouldn't get my hopes up, because who knows.

Okay, I am just really nervous and really needed to "talk" so I figured I "talk" with all my blogging friends. :)

Today

Today I feel: like if I could look into the future then my soul would be at ease. Unfortunately, I can't do that so I have to put my faith in my Heavenly Father, and today I feel that I am too weak to do that. So today I will just pray for the strength to keep going, and I know maybe tomorrow I'll be able to be stronger, just not today.

Today I see: a clean, freshly washed earth, luscious green grass, an incredible blue sky masked by quickly moving marshmallow clouds, you know the ones that you would love to just fall asleep in because they have to be so comfy, if only.....

Today I need: my husband, I need his strength, his kindness, his loyalty, his dumb jokes, just him.

Today I want: to enjoy my little guy. Enjoy his hugs, his kisses, his twirling of my hair, his smell, his smile, just every bit of him.

Today I hope: for one more day, so that I can learn and grow, love and enjoy, laugh and cry, kiss and hug, be.

I'm on a roll!!

So I'm copying Christal again but I thought it would be fun to have Friday be Favorite Things Friday!!!

I was looking through some quotes the other day and came across this quote :

Live like noone else, so someday you can live like noone else.

I REALLY needed to read this quote especially lately. Wayne and I are VERY blessed to live a very comfortable life, however, we live within our means. My biggest thing lately is I really WANT new furniture for our basement. We have some passed down, old, ugly, ripped fabric, stuffing falling out coaches downstairs that we got shortly after we got married, and have really appreciated for the last 5 years. Everytime I go downstairs though I cringe, I really hate the couches, but right now buying ourselves new couches is not in the budget. Yes, we could go and get credit from a store and "buy" the furniture but Wayne and I both intensely feel that we don't want to go into debt about our wants. This is SOOOOO hard though. I see soooo many people around us that have beautiful house, beautiful furniture, perfect clothes, fake nails, etc. etc. and I would LLLLOOOVVVEEEE to have all these things but that is totally my natural man/woman coming out in me. Don't get me wrong, I do feel that it is important to have the nice things in life but I also think it's important to have savings, have security, have investments, invest in Nate's schooling, and be debt free. We chose to lose an income so that I could stay home with my son, and we had to make some changes in our lifestyle but there is nothing better than knowing that we were able to do it and I am doing what I have ALWAYS really wanted to do. So yes, we are living like noone else (or at least not like the majority of people in the world) so that someday we can live like noone else.

Okay, now that my rant is over there are some things that I really do covet and someday when I am finished school and working again maybe, just maybe I can splurge a little bit. :)

Oh be still my beating heart!!! When I decided to do this Favorite Things Friday list I knew INSTANTLY what my first thing would be. AMY BUTLER FABRIC!!!! I am IN LOVE with beautiful fabrics!!! I have been coveting Amy Butler fabric for the last...oh I don't know...5 years 6 weeks and 2 days....hehe...just kidding but I really do LOVE her fabric. The colors are always SOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! the fabric feels top notch quality, I just really love the fabric. However, this is one of those things that right now is a TOTAL WANT not a need as this fabric is quite a bit more expensive than the fabric I normally buy. I have SOOOO many ideas in my mind about the beautiful things I could make with all this fabric, if I have a baby girl, this want maybe become a need....hehe... Here are just a few samples of her gorgeous fabric, if you want to see more you can google Amy Butler.


This is another want that I haven't fulfilled yet, but this is something that I really really might have to save all my pennies to get...hehe. The other day I saw a lady at Costco wearing this and I fell in love with it instantly. It's a lululemon jacket, looks pretty normal in the front but in the back is a beautiful little ruffle detail midback (I can't copy the pic, but here's the link:http://www.lululemon.com/products/womens/tops/jackets_vests/glamorous%20jacket). I LOVE the back and again this is on the top of my favorite list!! :)


Now some of my favorite things that I actually do own :)

I have eczema and if I am in soapy water, or anything that has chemicals in it too long the eczema really flairs up. I have tried for years and years to find a handsoap that doesn't kill my hands and Fruits & Passion's Cucina handsoap (I LOVE the lime zest & cypress fragrance, it's green) this is the first soap that works, doesn't react with my skin, it contains olive oil which leaves my hands soooo soft, and smells INCREDIBLE.


I stopped in the Adidas Outlet store a few weeks ago looking for shoes for Nate and found some super cute shoes for myself. They look very similar to this pair but my stripes are green and blue plaid.....I LOVE THEM!!!!


Well, Nate's up now so I should skadoodle!!

A new woman!!

I am now officially 5 lbs lighter than Wayne has ever seen me.... actually 5 lbs lighter than most of you out there have ever seen me before. I am feeling great, and only have 12 lbs to go to hit my goal weight. Now that I am getting to this size though, I think my goal weight might be changed to less because I still feel like I have quite a ways to go.

I know that I will NEVER be skinny skinny because I don't have that body type, but I am still really jiggly and smooshy(I have been working on that though) and I really want to look and feel the best that I can. Who knows, maybe in 12 lbs I won't want to get any smaller and will be happy where I am .......12 lbs.......that's sooo not far off after losing 34 lbs. 12 lbs is about a 1/3 of what I have already lost.... WOOHOOO!!!

YUMMY!!!!

So there's this big health craze going on that I have been WAY too scared to try, but today I took the plunge and boy oh boy!!!!!.........I am sure glad that I did.


What is this big scary thing you say?!?

Well it's.......




Green Drinks!!!!(this picture is not my drink but looks JUST like the drink I made)

Now before you run out of here screaming, hear me out.

First, I'll tell you about the health benefits of drinking these regularly, some of the benefits are:
-they contain high amounts of fiber
-they contain chlorophyl, which is very good for the blood
- they are great for immunity and help to heal diseases
-they help cleanse the body of bad toxins
- they don't contain oil or salt and only natural sugars

Plus, they taste FABULOUS!!!, they are crazy easy to make, it makes me feel sooo good that I know that I am putting good food into my body, if you call it green slime your kids might try it and then once they do they are stuck as they are sooo yummy.

So how do you make green smoothies. I made mine by taking 3 big handful of fresh spinach...yes spinach,I love the big bags from Costco ,I think it's like $4.00/bag. Now I did this in little handfuls at a time because my blender sucks, plus I added about 1/4 cup of water(only add the water once) to help it blend better and continue doing this till all the spinach was blended smooth. I then threw in chunks of fresh pineapple (about 1.5 cups) but you could totally put in as much as you want, and 2 ripe bananas (the bananas add the sweetness to the smoothie, and when they are ripe they have more antioxidants in them than unripe bananas). I blended this all together until it was smooth and then enjoyed!!!! It made a huge glass, plus a little extra for Nate. Next time I will make it early and then throw it in the fridge to chill, but I couldn't wait it was soooo good.

You can make this with any fruit or any green leafs you like and if you google green smoothis the possibilites are endless. Here's a link to some ideas:http://www.twopeasinabucket.com/mb.asp?cmd=display&thread_id=2574925

I hope you trust me and try it, I am sure you will like them, plus it's the perfect time of the year for yummy cold smoothies especially if they will help you look better in your swimsuit ;)

Just something to put down

Christal did this little questionnare and I thought it was sort of fun so since I have been trying to figure out things to write on here so why not do this one. :) If you want to do this one too all you have to do is answer the question only using one word answers.

1. Where is your cell phone? upstairs
2. Your significant other? fencing
3.Your hair? messy
4. Your mother? PERFECT
5. Your father? Hardworker
6. Your favorite thing? Family
7. Your dream last night? weird
8. Your favorite drink? Virgin strawberry daiquiri (sp?) Sorry that's 3 words ;)
9. Your dream/goal? Happiness
10. The room you're in? boring
11. Your children?WONDERFUL
12. Your fear? Failure
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Secure
14. Where were you last night? Supper
15. What you're not? Finished
16. Muffins? Pumpkin Spice (sorry that was 2 words)
17. One of your wish list items? Baby
18. Where you grew up?Alberta
19. What you read last? Blogs
20. What are you wearing? PJ's
21. Your TV? boring
22. Your pets? dreams
23. Your computer? Useful
24. Your life? Busy
25. Your mood? emotional
26. Missing someone? Hubby
27. Your car? LOVE
28. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
29. Favorite Store? Pottery Barn
30. Your summer?.Busy
31. Like someone? Hubby
32. Your favorite color?Blue/Pink
33. Last time you laughed? Tonight
34. Last time you cried? Today

98%

That's right.....



98%


That's what I just got on my exam from Monday!!! Let me just say it again 98%!!!! Plus, this was the hardest test for the class so I am BEYOND excited!!!!! That gives me a 91% average so far in this class.... ohhh if only I had a 91% average in highschool...oh well....

Did I mention I got 98%!!!!!

Half way done!!

Well I am officially half way done my night course and let me tell you, I think that I am going to actually miss going to class.

For anyone that doesn't know (because I don't know who reads my blog so I don't know if you know what happens in our everyday lives) I have been upgrading my Biology 30 class. Unfortunately, in Highschool I had a lot of fun, especially my last semester, and well fun didn't include schoolwork, or going to class for that matter. Do I regret not trying harder in school?!? Absolutely!!!! But you can't live in the past....and it was time to get things moving along. So for the last 5 weeks I have been going to school every Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday nights from 6:45-9:45.

I really have enjoyed my class. My professor is FABULOUS!!! She is funny, but so smart and you can tell that she REALLY enjoys being a teacher. I am also so happy I took this class when I did because my teacher has been teaching nightcourses for 9 years and so this is her last night class she'll be teaching. The other students in the class are great as well, and there are actually 2 other people from my church that are taking the class as well, so that's fun to get to know them better.

The best part of this class is that I feel like I am taking control of my life and accomplishing some of the goals that I have for myself. I REALLY want to be a nurse and this was the first step that I needed to take and it feels GREAT to finally be taking that step. Plus, my Mommy mush brain is finally being able to think again. I can actually remember things for more than a few moments, in fact I have gotten in the high 80's for my last 2 tests which is awesome when the class average for these tests were 57% and 67%.

I have A LOT of work to do in the next few weeks, 4 big assignments that are due and 3 more exams, but I can't wait. It will definately be nice to have a break from class, and to actually spend some time in the evenings with my hubby and son, but I really am going to miss going to school......oh well, I am sure I will get over it soon enough when I get into nursing and really have to go to school..hehe..

Oh he tears my heart out sometimes.

This little boy sure knows how to pull at my heartstrings. Today Nathan had been sent to his room for a time out and when he came back into the kitchen he had some pretty good crocodile tears on his face. He then turned to me and said, while wiping away his tears

"Mommy, my sad is leaking out."

HAHAHA!!! Are you kidding me?!? It was sooo sweet and of course made me feel like a horrible mother making my poor boys sad leak out...hehe... so funny.

Thankful Thursday!!!

It feels like I haven't had a whole lot of time to write on here lately, but today all I'm doing during the day is cleaning house, and well.... I am trying to come up with any excuse to not wash floors so I figured I should write on my blog!!!!

So since it's Thursday I would love to slow down and think about the things that I am thankful for.

1. I am SOOOO thankful for a body that I am able to do things with, did that make sense. Last night Wayne, Nate and I met up with our rec league baseball team to practice ( I didn't have school last night which was SOOO nice). I was playing shortstop and waiting for things to happen when I started thinking about how grateful I am that I can play ball, that I can move my legs, that I can move my arms, that I can run, skip, hop, twirl, anything I want because I have a body that works. When I broke my ankle over a year ago, it was amazing how hard it is to do ANYTHING. I had to crawl everywhere, or use crutches which suck. I could only do dishes or anything for a short while because my "good" leg would get so sore. It really made me grateful for 2 good legs.

2. I am thankful for having monetary means which enable us to do the things we want to do. Yes, we have to budget and we do have to give up some things that we would like, but we are able to have fun, do things we want, and know that we will have 3 healthy meals a day. I hate Saturday morning tv because the shows on 3rd world countries are always on, and I always get sucked into watching them, and then I end up sobbing because I truly feel for those people. I can't imagine not knowing how I was going to feed my child day by day, and then just having to sit there while my child cried because they were so hungry... ahhhh... it's making me sad. So yes, I am grateful that we can put Nathan in Preschool, in soccer, swimming, anything we want but I am even WAY more grateful that we can feed and cloth our child.

3. I am thankful for good friends, I might have talked about one in particular before but I would love to tell you a little about my best friend Jennifer P. When Nathan was a tiny baby I went to a thing called Parent Talk group. There were a bunch of woman and babies and I remember noticing Jen because she was VERY much like me. She was very outspoken, funny, loving, caring, blunt, a little crazy ;), and just a wonderful person. I was instantly attracted to her personality. We over the last 3 years have become WONDERFUL friends, but I feel (and I know she feels this way too) that it's more than that, we are sisters. I KNOW that Jen and I must have been incredibly close in Heaven before we came here because we have just clicked from the VERY beginning, it's like I already knew EVERYTHING about her but had just forgotten and now I remember it again and again and again. She is a wonderful mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend. I have been MORE than blessed to have found her. She is always there for me when I need to cry, complain, laugh, freak out, scream (okay I haven't done that but I have been close...hehe..), disagree with, agree with, did I mention laugh. I am soooo thankful for Jen and all that she has done for me and all that she has helped me to become. I love you Jen. <3

4. I am thankful for a mom who taught me how to do things for myself. I am thankful that when I complained that I never had clothes at the fabulous young age of 11 that she taught me how to wash my own clothes...hehe... ohhh I didn't like her very much right then, but I appreciate it now. I am thankful that she taught me how to cook and allowed me to experiment with food (even though some dishes were nasty) because now I LOVE to cook and share my experiments with friends and family. I am thankful that my mom didn't do everything for us, she allowed us to learn how to do things by ourselves but helped us along the way. Now that I am married I appreciate my mom making us do things around the house and teaching us how to do it properly regardless of whether we were boys or girls, and I now enjoy teaching Nathan the same way.

5. I am thankful for warm weather, and I can't wait to have grass again so Nate and I can play outside more often.

Well, I really should go wash floors...blah....toodaloo!!!

Okay, sexy hot running ladies I need some advice!!!

So Wayne and I have decided to start running and I'm SUPER excited, however, I am SOOOOO out of shape. I use to love running, haha, that was 10 years ago though...hehe....

Anyways, I am really wanting to do this but I need TONS of advice, and since I know that there are tons of you out there that are runners, could you please give me advice?

I am wanting to know how to start, what clothes should I wear, what shoes are good, how many days can/should I run a week, links to good websites, links to half marathons or marathons dates or ANY other advice you may have.

Thanks a lot!!!!

I make mistakes too!!!

All I have to say is if I have ever hurt or offended you, I am sorry.


I wish we could get past that moment that I regret, and I'm ready too but I'll wait until you are ready.


I hope it's sooner than later.

Call me, let's talk about it.

YAY Nathan!!!

This is TOTALLY a Mommy brag post but I don't care.

So Nathan has been potty trained for a few months now and we have only had a few accidents, which happened because he was too busy playing. It's been fabulous!!! I hardly ever even mention potty time anymore, I'll be busy doing something and I'll hear Nathan flush and then he'll yell for me to help him wash his hands, lately he's been trying to convince us he doesn't need to though.

Anyways, as any parents know pull-ups are expensive and I hate throwing them away unless they have been wet in, because I HATE adding needlessly to the landfill problem. Nathan has only been wearing pull-ups to bed and he hasn't been wet for I don't even remember how long. So we have been reusing the pull-ups, is that gross, I don't know, he only wears them at night and he's usually had a bath just before he puts them on so really he's clean right?!? Well, I'll keep telling myself that. :)

For the last couple of weeks I have been debating whether to try not wearing pullups or not and last night we took the plunge. You should have seen W's face when Nathan told him that he didn't have on a pullup...hehe...it was a TOTAL look of dread. :)

Nathan slept last night for the first time without a pull-up and he did AWESOME, he was dry this morning!!! YAY!!!! We have a plastic sheet on his bed, but Nathan ended up on our floor at 6 this morning and yes the thought crossed my mind to get a garbage bag and put it under him. Then I figured we would just have to rip out this stupid carpet if he peed on it, so then I smiled, handed Nathan a big drink(just kidding), and fell back asleep.

Thanks for making it this far, this is one of those moments that only mean the world to Mommy and Daddy but it's worth remembering.

Good try buddy!!!

Nathan has been fighting the beloved nap time lately, which is a TOTAL no go for me!!! I NEED nap time!! Plus, Nathan is not really ready to give it up yet, he just doesn't want to stop playing for 5 mins to lay down.

Anyways, today I convinced him to lay down and have a rest, if he wanted to just lay there and read books that was fine too. Anyways, not even 5 minutes later I hear his door open. I went to check and see what he was doing. He was standing in the doorway, ball in one hand, book in the other and said, "Good morning Mommy, I am SOOOOO rested, now it's time to play."

Good try little guy, I don't think so.

Not so sure.

I wasn't too sure if I wanted to document this phase that Nathan is going through, but this blog is to help me remember all the stages, and moments, good and bad that our family is going through. Plus, someday I will totally use this against the little man... :)

This morning Nathan and I were cuddling, watching cartoons in my bed and he looked up at me and said "Mommy, I want you to leave, I don't love you."


{Insert tears here}


Oh my freakin' goodness, are you kidding me?!? I knew when we hit the hormonal teenager phase that I would probably hear those words, but not out of my sweet, innocent, 3 year olds mouth.

My heart seriously broke.

Should I send him for a time out? Should I get up and leave? Should I cry, get mad, laugh? Ohhhh... I think I am going to cry....don't cry....teach....

I told Nathan that saying he doesn't love me and wants me to leave really hurts my heart and makes me sad and he shouldn't say that anymore. Of course, he said "Why?" So again, I explained how it hurts Mommy's heart and he doesn't want to make Mommy sad does he? I then was practically suffocated from his big hug and kisses.

I know that he doesn't really know what he was saying, and I know that he wasn't trying to hurt me. I know that he was just expressing something that he was feeling, maybe he really did want me to leave so Daddy would be here and they could spend some alone time together.

I don't know.

What I do know though is that no matter if Nathan "loves" me or not, I will ALWAYS love him, I will ALWAYS be here for him no matter what....that I know....so sorry little guy, your stuck with me forever whether you like it or not.....