Tomorrow is the big day!!!

Well the day has finally come, we are starting our fertility treatments tomorrow... aggghhhhh..!!! I have been having really mixed feelings about doing this this time, for anyone that may not know the medicine that I am going on helps me ovulate.. great you would think, but you know those families that have the quintuplets? well some of them took the same medicine that I will be taking... Okay, I fainted there for a second.. just kidding but seriously knowing that I could get pregnant with 5 babies at once is really unnerving. Everyone has been teasing us about having 5 babies which I really don't think is very funny, they won't be laughing when they receive a package and it is one of the babies for them to watch until it is out of diapers. :) Wayne and I were talking a while back and I was fretting about getting preggers with 5 babies and Wayne said "Well really, Jackie, what's 5 babies?" (and he was being serious), I started shaking, my usually quiet calm voice ;) turned into a yell and I said/yelled "What's 5, What's 5, are you kidding me, 5.......???" hehe... I know that statistically it is VERY uncommon to have mulitples when on this medicine and if they do happen it's usually twins or triplets, but I am one of those people that the crazy stuff always happens to... being propositioned to be an "escort" in NYC, having to jump on a Ferry to get back into the States as it is pulling away from the dock, etc.etc. , so the thought of getting pregnant with 5 babies isn't that far off.

Now just to add a little note, if we were to get pregnant with that many babies, after the shock wore off I would be very excited and love them all like crazy.. when they were 8... :)

Anyways, so now that the big day has finally come like I said before I was really quite nervous, nervous that we could get pregnant with 3 or more babies, worried that I will be really sick from the medicine that I will be on, worried that I will be SUPER cranky from the medicine(more so than now), but mostly worried that it won't work. I have been praying my little heart out to Heavenly Father pleading for him to make this happen, so tonight while I was reading my scriptures I came across a couple of verses in the Bible that really hit home. You know when you read something in the scriptures and it just feels like Heavenly Father put the words there for you to read right then? Well these verses were for me tonight. It's in Mark Chapter 11 verses 22-23 and I am going to paraphrase them a bit "...Have faith in God.....That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast inot the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart. but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith." I know that I definately don't have the faith to move mountains, but I do have faith that Heavenly Father knows what is best for me, he knows that I want another baby more than anything in this world, he knows what my struggles are, he knows that I am scared, but now I know more than ever that I can't doubt him, that I need to put my faith in Him and I know that everything will work out.

So wish us luck... or better yet, offer up a prayer to Heavenly Father for us.... and hopefully the time has come and our faith is strong enough so that we can welcome another special little spirit into our lives.
I love you all.
Jackie