:) :(

Well, because I had a lot of "fun" in grade 12 and I skipped a lot of school (which is THE only thing that I regret doing in my life) I don't have a high enough average to get into the nursing program. So after a lot of procrastination I finally started calling people and I got into the Biology 30 upgrade class offered at Siast!!! YAY!!! I am very excited!! It runs from the end of April tothe end of June, but....................

it's Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday nights from 6:45-9:45. :( :(


:( :( :(

I am soooo sad (in fact, I am crying right now) because I will not be able to see ANY of Nathan's soccer games, and this is his first year playing. I know that it's something SOOOO petty but it's times like this that making these decisions totally SUCKS!!! AHHHHH, why couldn't it be Tuesday night instead of Monday night. I know Nathan will have so much fun playing soccer and he probably won't even notice that I'm not there, but I'll know. They only have their firsts once and I have done everything in my power to always be there for those firsts.

I am probably just a hormonal, crazy woman right now, but this really does make me feel like I am not being the "best" mom I can be.

And then I stop and think about it and I KNOW that going to school and getting a better education, learning, growing, getting stability and a backup plan for our family, doing something to better me....... well, I know that this will all help me to be the best mom , woman, wife, Jackie that I can be.

Someday, I am sure I will look back at this post and laugh at myself.......it's just soccer........ and I know that I'll have SOOOO many more chances to be at his games in the future. But still....this is another bitter/sweet moments in life, right?!?